Misguided?

I am tired. Not sleepy tired like I would prefer, but just tired. Ever get the feeling there is something out there you just can't seem to find or realize? That itch that can never be scratched, the one thing you can't think of? Same concept but in a broad sense as to a greater whole you know exists but don't know what or how to come across it.

I've been doing a lot of thinking, a lot of seeing, a lot of realizing recently, and truthfully it's all lead me really quite nowhere. Strangely enough that is a good and bad thing... Inevitable as reality is laid out for me, I have no problem dabbling in dark parts because the whole time means simply nothing. Maybe thats why I've been sensing around aimlessly...

Who knows... more important matters to deal with first. Mostly everything is going great right now. Jammed with a friend at my job and his buddies during the snow day. Felt free again being able to conspire my thoughts with others to produce some near perfect jams. Reminds me immediately of the Consciousness I experienced being able to play music with others back in High School. That is something I miss and have been finally doing something about and establishing. Looking forward to hopefully finding the right people to do something special.

Well, I've got other matters to attend to. If you think I'm unhappy, my response would be: